Carving

Carving out my future. I was told that is what we young people are doing now, at this age, in our lives. My reaction? That's terrifying. I'm not qualified to carve out a day, let alone a whole future.
After everything lately, I feel I have what is coming down to two options. I can either seek Him, and do what He says, or I can not. And everything comes back to that choice. So, in that way, yes, I'm carving out my future. But I think it's more like choosing between letting Him carve it with me, or carving it by myself.
I keep thinking, what next? After all my asking myself, I'm still not getting an answer. I know I never will. I'm asking Him now instead, and I believe He'll answer. I also fully believe He'll continue saving and healing the messes in and around me.
I love that HE is the redeemer, justifier, savior, mediator. I love those words, I love that He is those words. For me.