Time

There are moments in life that sneak up on you sometimes... Where you're going along, IN whatever you're in, and all at once something snaps and you know- its time.

It's time for a change, time to move on, time to heal, time to be done. Whatever it is, it's just time.

Seems like I've been having a lot of these "times" lately.

Promise you....

Life is really, really hard sometimes. Because it just is, because of my mistakes, or because of some other reason, I don't know. Maybe, sometimes I think probably, it will always be hard.

One thing I realized recently though, looking back on it all, now seeing the visible effects of His work... He has never let me go, never left me all alone.

That was a promise He gave me, one I know He spoke right to my heart, years ago. Probably about 5 years ago, actually. He told me, I will never leave you.

Everyone leaves. Everyone fails. No matter how much they love you, they will fail. There is a limit to us. But not to Him, and He never leaves and never fails.

I was talking to a friend the other day, both of us going through hard times, and he told me what the Lord had shown him that day. The verse says to resist the devil and he will flee from you. We can resist the Lord, but He never flees. We can't shock Him into leaving us, cant resist Him into running, can't rebel til He abandons. He really won't forget us, because He adores us and wants desperately to save us. 

I guess what I realize is, I can walk away from Him, but He is still always waiting and working to bring me back. That type of heart is beyond anything I can imagine...

He never goes back on His promises. It's amazing to realize, He is all that I've been looking for.

Thou on my head in early youth did smile

And though rebellious, and perverse meanwhile

Thou hast not left me, though I've oft left Thee.

 Until the close Lord, abide with me.