Well Lord... Now what?

My eyes are open, and so is my heart. Whatever and whenever You want to change, direct, open or close doors, I'm on board to just go. Not just willing- I truly want to.

I wonder sometimes if that is why He waits to changes things- He knows I'm not quite ready, even when I think I am. He's so patient, and more. 

He doesn't just wait for me to change on my own, but brings life along to change me, and is directly involved. He meticulously monitors it all infinitely closer than any brain surgeon performing a surgery on his most valued loved one. 

I, being oblivious to that most of the time, am as much a clumsy spiritual walker as a I am a physical one. He is so patient... And as He daily opens my eyes to things I didn't know, I'm ever more thankful. 

Now it's just, "now what?". And already asking Him for patience to wait for his answer.