genuine and unashamed

Talked to my grandma today on the phone, since she is in Montana and I am in Washington. I got off the phone after talking 16 minutes, and realized I had just finished the first genuine conversation I have had with her in as long as I can remember. I have nothing to hide, no reasons to protect myself or be defensive. That is pretty different, pretty amazing. The Lord is so good. I want to always be in a place where I am not ashamed, because whatever is in my life by choice I am confident that he put there, and whatever is there naturally I am confident he will refine. There is so much liberty in it i feel like a new person. I remember months ago talking about how I wanted all things in my life to have his stamp of approval on them... And that he would set me on HIS paths of righteousness. I see him working me to that and it is terrifying and completely thrilling. Shame is horrible to live with, but I think almost everyone does. How sweet to be unashamed.